Making change…”would you like 5’s 10’s or twenties?”

I went back to school hoping I would making a difference. No, BELIEVING I would make a difference. The first few weeks of school swept the rug out from under me and now, not only do I question everything, I question myself. These TED talks are great, except they all seem to be “in media res”. What I mean is, they found answers, and resources, and connections and they had this moment where they could do something. Now, as I see jobs being scarce, and even more education not being much more of a remedy to that, I ask, “What can I really do?”

But I mean it. What can I really do?

It’s nice to imagine being behind this great idea of a Multiliteracy Space (Digital Learning Space), and it is great to think I could help put a very small force behind it, but beyond that, what next? How can I REALLY be a part of it? It is one thing to design something, it is another thing to keep it running…I want to be a part of what keeps it running and growing and moving.

I guess this post is more searching for answers (as all my posts seem to be as I feel lost, questioning everything I believed and hoped in). I always had hoped I would make a difference. And not just one small difference, but a continuous, growing difference. A change. I wanted to make a change, a thing where we look at it all differently. I know there are no right answers, and I know there are politics and bullshit and all this other garbage…so how do the changers defeat that? How do the changers make the changes? And how can I help?

But I mean, how can I REALLY help?

-Kyleen